Posted by JenStar on May 16, 2005, at 15:35:09
I know it seems awful right now, but it WILL get better. You're going to be OK! You're a wonderful caring person, and in time you WILL get past the pain of separation. It's entirely possible that the T doesn't feel the pain of separation like you do. I think it's part of their job to remain a bit distant emotionally so they don't feel the separation pain, but it doesn't mean that she won't miss you. I'm sure she wants you to be very successful, and wishes you the best in the future. I'm sure she cares what happens to you, and if it were in her power to do so, she would wave a magic wand and make you OK again. :) But since your relationship is over, she won't be contacting you or keeping up communication. But you can still keep her words and memories in your heart and use her to inspire you, as you work past the pain and fear.
I have to admit I don't know your history, so forgive me if the next statement is blunt or out of line. Is it possible that just finishing school or doing the semester would be better than the other options? Maybe you ARE trying to avoid it. What would happen if you just did the school thing? I apologize if that is upsetting or not helpful. But for me, I find that I often go to huge lengths to avoid painful confrontations or things I *need* to do. And then when I finally DO them, they're not so bad and I feel so much better. Just food for thought.
Take care of yourself!
JenStar
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