Posted by Tamar on April 29, 2005, at 15:32:14
In reply to Re: Tormenting myself... (longish) » Tamar, posted by Shortelise on April 29, 2005, at 0:08:31
Thanks for sharing your experience, ShortE. That does sound like a particularly unpleasant nightmare. And also your T’s reaction. Ugh. It’s funny how they can seem completely unaware of our reality sometimes.
Yes, you’re right: it *is* about my reaction. I just felt I was too repulsive to live. And of course, I did have sexual feelings for him, though the dream wasn’t really about sex. Although, hmm... having said that, it did seem to have a recurring theme of Things That Could Never Happen. Ha ha! I guess he was right to steel himself!
Yes, now I’m getting interested... I guess I’m also sad that I allowed it to define my perception of his response to me.
Thanks again.
Tamar
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