Posted by Shortelise on April 27, 2005, at 14:30:04
In reply to Re: Why would anyone like me? **Trigger** » Shortelise, posted by pinkeye on April 27, 2005, at 12:51:43
Sometimes I get tired of trying. Sometimes it's easier to just tred the old paths, let my minds fall into the well-worn patterns that take no thought, no effort. Painful but familiar. I don't know why I do it. But I do. It might be the same for others. I do reallly get this. Self- loathing is insidious, hard to throw off and so easy to project onto others. And I think too that we do that self - fulfilling prophecy thing where we choose people who will do to us what we expect them to do ... do you see what I mean?
Honestly, I haven't read what else has been written here - I am working and running, and stressed. Your subject line called to me and I had to talk with you about this. Pinkeye, I say this to you but also to myself, let's not do this, let's love ourselves, let's live well, let's let ourselves make healthy choices in our friends, be lonely for a while if that's what it takes. This is what we have. And I just don't believe that anyone is innately not likeable. I know I act like a twit sometimes, but that does not mean, can not mean, I am thoroughly dislikeable.
Ugh. I do find this so ... sad, awful, hard. I am again so sorry you are dealing with this. But get through it, face it, get it out there! Then buy a dress and go for a walk. Um are you a woman? It doesn't matter. If you aren't you could still buy a dress, but maybe not wear it on your walk unless you are really in the right mood.
SHortE
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