Posted by Shy_Girl on April 23, 2005, at 15:42:25
In reply to Borderline stigma, posted by Shy_Girl on April 23, 2005, at 14:44:46
I'm sad. :-( I think my pdoc giving me this label of BPD means she is fed up with me. My worst fears are confirmed. She hates me!
I don't even cut anymore and I've never actually attempted suicide (hurt myself with the INTENT of dying). People don't even find it difficult to be around me, probably because I avoid most people.
Perhaps I've been too open with my pdoc, aways telling her of my suicidal ideations. I'm probably stressing her out and now she really hates me.
I hate this. I don't want to be a drain on the health system. It's probably easier if I don't exist. I hate this. I'm flawed and might never get better. Drugs won't even work because it's my personality that's flawed. I've grown up wrong and may never become normal. I'm doomed. I'm an outsider even to the mental health system...no sympathy for me because it's my personality that's flawed. This is horrible. My life is a waste.
Shy Girl
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