Posted by pinkeye on April 21, 2005, at 20:42:45
In reply to Re: Stressed so much, posted by Susan47 on April 21, 2005, at 20:24:28
that has been the hardest question for me to answer to myself all this time. Do I love him? I don't know.. honestly. after this 4 years of marriage, I don't know if I love him. I do like him. And I am affectionate towards him and he is affectionate towards me inspite of our differences. And I always thought that is worth living in a marriage for.
But the problem comes when I have to sacrifice so much.. and I just don't want to. And I have to keep sacrificing more and more things.. That is what irritates me the most. But he takes good care of me when I am in pain due to my arhtritis.. but in a way all this conflict wiht him makes my pain worse in the first place.
He is also little pitiable.. He wanted to spend time with his parents from the start.. and I agreed to go back with him before marriage. And he waited for me for 2 yeras to get my Green Carrd.. Now he wants to move back, partly becuase his father is also getting sick. And I can't blame him. I just want to try to do a reasonable option - where we can spend 6 months in a year there and 6 months here, so I can preserve my residency for a few year so I can apply for my citizenship.
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