Posted by LadyBug on April 19, 2005, at 21:53:30
I've been around here for about 2 weeks. I've made a few replies but this will be my first start of a thread.
I have read so much here and I have learned a lot!!! I think this site is awesome! I have learned that I'm not alone with the madness of therapy!! I feel better for knowing that, as I need all the help I can get to understand it all.
I've been seeing my T. for over 8 years. I love her very much and she has been very good for me. She is wonderful! We've had our in's and out's but we have managed to work through things.
I won't bore you with everything about me right now. I'm sure in time you will get to know me better. I am obsessed with therapy! And obsessed with my T. And I bought the book In Session a few years ago when it first came out. I got a copy for my T. also. It really helped me see things that I had felt even though it focused on female/male relationships mostly. Oh well, some of the feelings are similar. I loved that book and still read from it as I have it right by my bed.
I go in once a week for the most part. I've done 3 times a week in the past if it was needed but once a week for now is good. For this week she needed to change my schedule (for a family obligation) and make it one hour later than usual. That was nice of her to do but it conflicts with my other obligations so I can't go unless I make my daughters come second to my T. and I won't do that to them. So I told her I did't think I should come in this week. I have't talked to her about it cuz I sent a note in the mail to tell her. I had to mail a check so I just sent it with the check. I know her well enough to know that she will be feeling bad about asking me to adjust to *her* schedule because it reminds me of what I've always had to do in life. I'm understanding that she is human and she has needs come up and they can't be helped. She offered me a different appointment, but I declined.
NOW I miss her!! I had one of my major *I QUIT< I'M OUTTA HERE* episodes a few months ago and we are just recovering from it and things are going good. I was doing well and feeling a really good connection with her and now I've screwed that up by making it 2 weeks between appointments. It is too hard for me to go any other time because of my job and her schedule. So I decided tonight that I'd come here to BABBLE to vent my sadness and longing to see her. I'm trying real hard not to depend on her and not withdraw from her either. I don't want to call and bother her with my feelings. But I don't want to go 2 weeks without talking to her either. She doesn't allow e-mail which I have accepted. Snail mail has only been allowed if I am sending journal entries. I can call, but I don't want to bother her.
So I'll get my support from you guys for a few days until I can see her again.
It's crazy, I know, there's nothing quite like the real thing!!!! But then again, this place seems pretty amazing to me!
I love what you all have to say here. I've learned a lot and I hope I can contribute some good stuff too.
Thanks for reading this. I know it's long. But I need to break the ice here and what a way to do it!!
I hope to get to know all of you better as we try to help each other along our journey.LadyBug
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