Posted by daisym on April 19, 2005, at 2:22:37
In reply to Taking it all in, posted by gardenergirl on April 18, 2005, at 23:59:34
GG-- What did you say about the moon and the stars and therapist in alignment? Thursday was not a good day...
BUT -- I went back in (after avoiding him for three days, cancelling a phone session on Friday and then leaving a message on Sunday but "accidentally" turning my phone off so I missed all of his call back attempts!) and told him I was mad at him. We had a good conversation about how he reflected on the session afterwards (wow - that surprised me) and he thought he came off really heavy-handed. He said he actually thought to himself, "where did that come from?" and realized that his anxiety with me is way up and I pushed him hard on Thursday. AND I asked if he had ever lost a patient to suicide and he said answering me honestly (yes) caused many of those old painful feelings to surface. So he pushed hard back. And I felt it. He worked as hard today as I did to reconnect. We aren't all the way there, but it was a good start.
Ok -- so this isn't supposed to be all about me. But I think your therapist is a lot like mine in this approach so perhaps as you've been thinking about all of this, so has he.
I know you'll bring it up. Something important is happening. It just feels crummy working through it, doesn't it?
I made cupcakes today. You can have one. They are still warm. Or come hide with me in a hotel room. I'll be all by my lonesome. We can play truth or dare and drink the small bottles in the mini-fridge.
(((GG))))
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