Posted by pinkeye on April 18, 2005, at 14:15:55
In reply to Re: Anybody afraid of growing up? » pinkeye, posted by Dinah on April 15, 2005, at 22:32:03
Actually in the culture that I grew up in, little bit of physical violence was considered ok. My father has beaten me up several times. He didn't beat my mother much, but he has slapped her a few times. So I don't think too much of it, if it is mostly because the other person loses control.. and not to intentionally hurt.
But it does terrorize me. And I am not doing so good in the past few days. I am becoming extremely angry and feeling very helpless. And I hate him, I hate his family, I hate my family, I hate my marriage.. everything. I don't want to feel this way. But somehow I beleive this is what I deserve also.. kind of I don't deserve better. Don't know what to do. There is a huge conflict between us right now, whether to go back to my country or to stay here, and this issue has always been the major derailer for me..
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