Posted by Tamar on April 5, 2005, at 20:36:04
In reply to Afraid of my therapist, Acting like a scared child, posted by Poet on April 4, 2005, at 18:51:18
Do you think you're afraid you're a therapy failure? Or is the fear connected to the things you're talking about in therapy?
I suddenly realised after terminating that I'd been afraid of my T on several occasions, and I hadn't even identified it as fear; I'd thought of it primarily as embarrassment. When I acknowledged my feelings of fear, I was quite surprised, because I'd always thought of my relationship with my T as an adult-adult relationship, but I realised the fear came from a child-place, and on reflection I'm sure it was because I was talking about events in my childhood.
Has your T passed your tests by telling you you're doing therapy right? Or might your fear stem from a transference of old feelings onto your T? If it's the latter, perhaps your fear is more about the content, rather than the process of therapy.
I hope you find ways to understand and resolve it; I'm sure your T will be able to help if you talk through with her the nature of your fears.
Tamar
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