Posted by Tamar on March 20, 2005, at 19:12:49
In reply to feelings of grandosity to comphensate for depressi, posted by mmcconathy on March 20, 2005, at 14:52:29
> This has blocked me from find who i am really am, i have avoided to project myself becuase i feel im not "sophisticated", or just not really "the person" i want to be.I'd like to be the person I want to be too. But somehow I have to discover the person I am, and that isn't necessarily the person I want to be. I hope to learn to live with the person I am (if that makes sense)!
> When i chat with people, i always see myself as someone else that is sophistated, or just someone i want to be. I put on frounts, fake egos, faces, personality.I put on make up! But I know what you mean. It's nice to pretend to be somebody better, nicer, more popular... But at the end of the night the make up has to come off and I'm back to being me.
> I do have a person in my mind, that helps me try to get things together, but i realized it really doesnt work, i lean on them, who are not real, catasphophe.
Yeah. It's easier not to try to be someone else. You can only be who you are.
> I think we all have "intrests" that draw people, to eachother, forms friends...bla, i dont really have any common intrests, when i was a kid, i was more intrested in trying to get in my grandma's attic.
Maybe when you were a kid you didn't find you had common interests with other kids... although I'm sure there were plenty other kids who wanted to get in their grandma's attic. But now you're not a kid anymore, what are you interested in? Are you interested in things that other people are interested in?
> Well, i've been reading this novel by Dr. Robert Anthony "Total-Self Confidence" which has been pretty helpful in finding awareness. but anyway..
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So you're interested in reading novels. Lots of people are interested in reading novels. I haven't read the book you mention, but I recently read 'What I Loved' by Siri Hustvedt.Do you find that reading gives you a sense of being yourself?
Tamar
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