Posted by daisym on March 4, 2005, at 1:04:58
In reply to Supression, posted by Poet on March 3, 2005, at 20:39:54
I can only tell you that from my experience it wasn't about admitting it to her...it was about admitting it to myself. Saying it out loud made it so REAL...unbearably real.
And it took months for me to realize that not telling was so ingrained that it is auto-pilot: "What's your name: Daisy. Where you abused? Of course not." Telling is like a pebble in a pond, and we can't control the ripples.
Don't be so hard on yourself. I tell my therapist all the time, I trust him. I don't trust me.
I hope she fits you in on Saturday. If she can't, maybe a check in by phone, just to touch base. Another thing I've learned is that after I tell something, I need to keep checking to be sure that he hasn't blown away, disappeared or run from me.
Please take care of yourself. You are in a very vulnerable place.
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