Posted by crushedout on February 27, 2005, at 9:31:36
In reply to Re: Really good session » crushedout, posted by 10derHeart on February 26, 2005, at 15:53:39
Hi 10der,Thanks! Yeah, I think she's a keeper, but ask me after tomorrow's session and I'll probably be agonizing and saying she's not right for me. I literally go back and forth and back and forth constantly. It's a vicious and horrible way to live and I don't know why I was made this way. Sigh.
As for twice a week, I absolutely think it's ideal. I kind of think the more the better. If I could I'd go every day. But you have to balance it against the costs, both in time and money. And there may be a point where your added gain is not that significant -- I'm not sure.
But twice a week is great. I'm not sure how much longer I'll be able to do it, though. I'm panicking because my insurance will run out in two months and then I may be paying out-of-pocket. I'm still not sure whether my T will slide her fee for me. So I may end up going back to once a week, which makes me sad, but it's better than nothing. I'm trying not to panic because no matter what happens, I'll survive. [wincing because I don't quite believe what I'm saying]
> Hi Crushed
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> So glad you posted that. And it's really neat that even though everything didn't go quite so right, things hurt and you cried when you were trying not to, you describe that as a *good* session. And I'll bet it's mainly from the overall feeling of safety. And she sounds like maybe she's quite calm and centered when responding to you? Maybe also different from your last experience. It seems like an encouraging and honest interaction you had. She seems like a *keeper* - yes?
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> Does twice a week feel just right to you? Just wondering as there was another thread on that recently, and I am considering bringing it up to my T., to add sessions. $$ is a problem, though, plus I'm so undecided what I really need.
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> Anyway, happy for you, and I'll selfishly say it helped me to think about your comments, to get me "out of my own head." Having issues with depression, backsliding in process of detaching from old T., and generally sitting around feeling stuck and useless for a few days...just a small rough spot, I'm sure, but talking to you guys here helps more than anything lately. Take care.
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