Posted by TamaraJ on February 23, 2005, at 11:35:26
Ok, this is hard. I will return to work on the 14th of March after an extended leave because of both physical and mental health issues. I am a nervous wreck! I have always loved the place where I work. The work is interesting, varied and fast-paced. But, I am now having serious doubts about my abilities and am worried that I will be a disappointment and a failure when I return. Until now, I have always had a good reputation at work as a high performer and my appraisals have been outstanding, both of which have always come as a shock and a surprise to me (it is always in the back of my mind that it is just a matter of time before they see what a dud I really am). What if I can't do it anymore? I have made some demands that are in my best interest in advance of my return. I have asked to be relieved of my management responsibilities and be given a role where I am not having to work 11 or more hours a day and be responsible for others in a managerial sense. After months of disagreeing on this issue, my boss has finally agreed, and has offered me two things - both of which would be extremely interesting an challenging. I am not afraid of hard work. I have been working since I was 14, and have sometimes held two jobs. It's the fear of letting others down that has me almost paralyzed. It's the fear of my inability to enforce boundaries and stand up for myself and my needs. Oh God, what am I going to do?
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thread:462240
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