Posted by Aphrodite on February 22, 2005, at 12:49:00
The chances of this happening have to be staggering. We live in a large city. In a part of town where neither of us reside, I pulled up to a church at night for an obscure author's lecture. The church and topic is of a religion to which neither one of us belong. I pulled into a parking space in a large lot, and my T pulled up too. I panicked and tried to find an easy way to leave, but I was afraid I may have already been spotted. And I did PAY for this and I wasn't going to be chased away! I was alone; he was alone. I decided to be mature about it. He smiled at me, and I walked up and said, "Don't I know you from somewhere?" There was some ensuing small talk, and I went along my merry way starting to panic again that it is general seating and do I just sit there like I don't know him? Would he sit by me? Would it be rude of me to sit elsewhere? I thought it would be nice but scary to sit with him. Before I had any time to think, he was walking next to me on the long path from the lot to the church. He does not have a ticket, he tells me, and he called ahead and believed they were sold out. He tells me to wait; he thinks he can talk someone into letting him in.
By now I am in a complete panic. I saw him once outside of his office at a conference. I was presenting on the 3rd floor, his psych conference was on the second. I lost my breath then, too. Why do I do this?!?!? I froze on the church steps as he spoke. I had no idea that he was so tall or what his hair looked like when the wind blowed. He was like a totally different person. I told him, now that I thought about it, I really was tired and had a long day, and he was welcome to have my ticket. He kept arguing with me about it and said he was sure they would let him in, just wait and see. But I knew I could never concentrate -- my anxiety level was so high. I didn't know the appropriate rules of behavior and he was being nicely familiar and friendly. Could I be the same way? I insisted enough, and he finally took my ticket. I began to walk away with tears in my eyes. I got a glimpse of what it would be like to have him as a friend and it was entirely too painful.
He called me after the event to thank me and tell me that he ordered me a CD of the event. "Wasn't that just so odd?" he asked. "I think our similarities is why the universe put us together in this work."
So bizarre. I hope I did the right thing.
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