Posted by corafree on February 21, 2005, at 19:48:37
In reply to Re: Buckled @ Knees Thwarted Suicide Attempt » corafree, posted by Dinah on February 21, 2005, at 19:05:41
Guess you saw where I posted re: my State P. He is only there to write meds, the words from the mouth of my caseworker today. I am in my 7th mo DBT, prob' missed 4 or 5 visits with T or Group in total. I did call her today. I told her that it was hindering my desire to go and learn; her constantly nagging at me about attendance and being kicked out, but told this to her answering machine. This afternoon and eve I have had a nonstop, severe, anxiety attack; hard to type. Called caseworker again. He is going to schedule an appt w/ a P, but they do not know you there, they just look at your dx and write meds. I think that I have a may have, subconsiously, an angry or fearful attitude towards these people that I need help from ... and know I'm going to be seeing both in next few days, may be causing this horrible, disabling anxiety ... I can hear and feel my heart, whole body shaking, hot, then cold, gasping for big gulps or air, and I wrap my arms around my ribcage tightly to try stop the feeling my heart will literally break out! Xanax is not working. Dang Eff-XR - don't know what it's doing. Only other thing I take during day is 75mg levothyroxine - could it be too much? Dinah - Not asking you to answer all these questions/ideas ... just needed to get out and all I can do is hypothesize. Something is so wrong. I wish I could afford to get off this State health system. Yep, pretty sure I am not very happy w/ P or T! Did not call NAMI, forgot, but will tomorrow. Tks for concern this eve, cf
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