Posted by Susan47 on February 18, 2005, at 12:55:32
There's too many of those in life. "You shouldn't feel this way" "This is bad for you" "I'm worried about you" "You shouldn't be calling" "You should be trying to work this out somewhere else ... with somebody else... some other way..."
All things that were said to me on ways along this journey.. this very intimate, incredibly painful journey (not saying that it's over either - far from it). I listened to my inner voice the whole time, the entire time this little voice inside me was saying "No, this is what you need. You need this brutality to yourself, you need this honesty, you need this." I tried to convey that to everyone, especially my therapist at the time. He ended up I think giving up, but I didn't. I did not. I knew what I was doing every moment, even in the "craziest" of them.
Can I please say to people like Michelle and pinkeye and others I can't think of right now, you're not doing anything wrong and you never were. Your soul is knowing what you need to do. You just need to find exactly the right circumstance and the lock can be opened, I know that. The right key and the right lock, at the right time. It can happen, you can MAKE it happen.
Smiles all round good night (there's the Voice of Self-Doubt just sneakin' right in there trying to crack a joke and make it light, haha).
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