Posted by Susan47 on February 16, 2005, at 12:17:38
In reply to Re: Okay, but I'm still so ANGRY, posted by sunny10 on February 16, 2005, at 11:59:08
I will. I definitely will. I've spent far far too much time giving him opportunities to explain his poor behaviour; I've realized for a long time now that he was unable to give me the appropriate responses; he never fought for a relationship with me, his patient. He was lackadaisical. (His personality, HAH!) He simply did not engage with me. It's true that he was afraid of me. His behaviour abused me. It was inappropriate. I remember the times I needed to see him the most, when I tried to set up appointments, he would lie I'm sure of this, absolutely sure, and he would say he had no openings this week or next. What an a**hole. No guts, no courage, no ability to do the right thing. I'm so ANGRY, Sunny!! How do I deal with this? I have two weeks to wait, TWO WEEKS. The time seems endless, right now.
I remember when I first began posting on Babble, people with experience were telling me my t and let me down. I didn't believe them, I guess I wanted to shine this guy up so I could continue what I thought I needed to do, which I really did need to do. The fact that I'm doing better now, right now, can all be attributed to me. He did absolutely nothing to help me. No hand reaching out, nothing. Nothing.
Therapists have a lot of responsibility. My God, it's important to get someone who knows what they're doing. I'm lucky to be alive. I remember the first time I came really close to killing myself, it was the only time, as well. I called his machine, I told him what I wanted to do, I remember feeling split in two, and watching myself from a high distance. I remember. He knew, and he didn't call back even when he did get the message. He didn't call. He didn't call. What an A**hole.
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