Posted by AMY II on February 11, 2005, at 12:43:27
In reply to Re: Does anyone have weird crazy thoughts/Anxiety, posted by sunny10 on February 11, 2005, at 12:07:51
When I have an anxiety attack, I have like really bad weird thoughts though. Like I all of the gross horror movies I ever watched were popping into my head and I couldn't get them out. My husband was trying to make me laugh during this epsisode and thought it was funny to make a joke about shaving our daughters hair off, and I immediately had an image of me shaving her hair but instead of her hair it was her entire scalp and it was all bloody. Then the scene from The Patriot came into my head where Mel Gibson kills the guy with that hatchet and just made him mince meat. I then immediately had a thought of me being on top of my husband and tearing out his guts.
I know this sounds disgusting, but I wanted to be frank with everyone. These are the disgusting things I am talking about. I do not have them when I am not having an anxiety attack. My psycologist said it is all part of my chemical imbalance and the anti anxiety medications will work to balance this out and I will start to have a normal thought process again. I know I would never act out any of these images, the thing that I hate is that they enter my head for no reason and I can't make them go away.
I was sitting on the couch the other day and I felt an anxiety attack coming on. As I sat there and tried to control it, I had a pencil in my hand and immediately thought " what if I am going crazy and I stuck this pencil in my temple?"
Does any of this sound familiar?
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