Posted by Pfinstegg on February 11, 2005, at 11:11:09
In reply to Parts and Pieces, posted by daisym on February 11, 2005, at 1:26:56
Daisy, I am having exactly the same experiences as you are! Adult me and 6-year-old me are struggling with each other for time with our T; whichever one is there at the moment also tends to forget that the other one exists.The tricky thing about dissociation is that one doesn't always know it's happening, don't you find? Each part has completely different tranferences; the adult is quite secure, and has meaningful, often humorous interactions with our lovely analyst, but the 6-year old thinks he is HUGE in size, and may even be menacing or dangerous (a reality check:I'm 5'11" in real life, so nobody is huge!). We have been trying our best to make each part more accepting of the other one- and just to make sure each part doesn't forget that there IS another one. I've now started to practice being aware of the other part when I'm by myself. If I feel fairly relaxed and happy, I try to remember how terrified and heartbroken the girl feels- I try to remember her memories. When I am feeling just awful, I can assume it's the girl. Then, I try to remember that there is a more grown-up part who doesn't feel that terrible about everything - just trying to practice getting these two to know each other better. I think it is helping- the girl can partake a little better in the good transference the adult has, and the adult is getting used to hearing about the csa (not remembered before analysis) without denying it or feeling quite as hopeless or ashamed about it. I have to say that I feel as if I do really know just what you are struggling with! As always, I wish you the very best, and hope this very difficult time gets better very soon.
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