Posted by Dinah on January 21, 2005, at 18:12:17
In reply to Re: At the risk of weirding people out again » Dinah, posted by mair on January 21, 2005, at 17:48:38
I wish my therapist would do the worst case scenario thing with me. I think he wants to stay "positive". But the problem is that I can't imagine any way to survive the worst case. I need to be less positive and figure that out. His "We'll figure that out if it happens." really isn't helpful.
Right now I'm facing abject failure. Being unable to make necessary deadlines. That terrifies me beyond belief.
When I first came to him, my fears were work related but different. My OCD was about making a mistake that would bring shame to my family. I made some life changes that minimized the chances of a big impact, and we also did all the CBT things, and the fear got to be under control.
Now my fear isn't that I'll make a mistake, but that I will finally be unable to beat the failure that's been gaining on me for years. At this point, I can't see how that could possibly be bearable.
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