Posted by littleone on January 16, 2005, at 16:23:52
In reply to about having a dx or not, posted by terrics on January 2, 2005, at 10:43:36
After I witnessed the accident, I was given a diagnosis of depression of the melonchonic variety (think I spelled that badly) and PTSD. But it felt like I practically had to lead my ex-T around to those DX's by the hand.
I also believe that I have AvPD with some traits from other PD's along with some OCD tendencies (but not OCD itself), but my current T won't diagnose me. I've tried to get it out of him a few times, but he always jumps over my questions. He refuses to diagnose, but at the same time, he's pretty willing to admit that I'm really messed up.
I can understand why he won't. Often it is easy to live up to your diagnosis or to use it as an excuse not to improve or to blame it for all your problems. Use it to dodge the responsibility of improving. It helps to maintain a victem mentality.
But by the same token, I feel like I need the validation. When I told my ex-T that I thought I had AvPD, he kind of treated me like "I'm the doctor, just leave the diagnosing up to me little girl". My current T has never been like this, but often I want to know that yes, I have a problem. I'm not just imaging things. I guess I have a lot of trouble trusting my own judgement.
Hope this helps with your thoughts.
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