Posted by Dinah on January 4, 2005, at 22:50:08
In reply to Re: My new goal, posted by annierose on January 4, 2005, at 21:47:05
It might make it easier to understand.
Forgive the "she" part. It's just easier than trying to explain without it. I could do it the other way, but it would be confusing.
I've come to the conclusion that Happy Dinah was the one who daydreamed, though I can't be sure. But when she came back for a couple of days a year or two ago, she brought back the daydreams as if they had never stopped. She remembered parts of them that I had forgotten.
She took over my body in tenth and twelth grades (extending over into the first semester of college). I was myself in eleventh grade. I've always said aliens took over my body in tenth and twelth grades.
She was happy and self-confident. Popular by my standards.
She liked her body. A lot. She liked that guys liked her body. She could whip this body into something approaching shape in no time at all. Unlike either other part of me, she has unbelievable self control. Could get by on a thousand calories a day. Didn't mind starving for a good body. I could never do that. When I was Happy Dinah, I considered myself fat at 119.
She didn't mind being sexual with others, while I hated it. She didn't quite understand the aversion she had to kissing.
She is smart enough to work. Way more capable of work than emotional me. Emotional me can't work at all well. Probably better than rational me too, since she's less linear and less overly concerned with error.
My husband would think he'd like her around, but I don't really think he actually would since he doesn't really like me in a good mood.
I wouldn't mind going away very much if Happy Dinah was there. I always liked living vicariously through her. Besides, both rational and emotional me like Happy Dinah, while neither rational nor emotional me like each other.
The only problem I can see is that Happy Dinah giggles way too much. And maybe, just maybe, she isn't always as kind as she should be. Although what I recall is that she was unkind to teachers she thought were stupid, not in general unkind. That's understandable, I guess. And I would miss my therapist. If he would laugh more, Happy Dinah might like him ok.
I think the positives would definitely outweigh the negatives.
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