Posted by mmcconathy on January 2, 2005, at 0:32:39
I dont know if im going insane, i truly feel im losing my mind.
I'm 17, i dont know where im going, who I am, i have dissociation, i dont know where or how to get out of this.
Every since i was a kid i have been rejected, i have bad social skills, not violent, i still feel insecure as if i still need my mother.
While everyone else was developing normally, i stayed in isolation, and didnt adapt socially. I cant take this, im not normal and i cant stand it, I WANT TO BE SOMEONE ELSE! it just never ends, Im trying to find God for help, but im lost and no one to go to.
I just wished i had a Dad to go to and feel safe, and know im normal. I never had that since my parents divorced, only a controlling mother who had mental issues of her own.
My real dad is successful, has a law firm, but is a complete naraccisst, tells me im nothing, i guess i am, but i know God loves me.
Here i am about to go into life, im overwhelmed, basically live on Xanax, almost daily emotional breakdowns, no one here to tell me im normal, no friends, my other personalites cope, when my dad slaps me down and calls me failure, horrible things, i go numb.
I need to get on my feet before collage.
Please if you ahve any help input, i would greaty appreiciate anything.
poster:mmcconathy
thread:436641
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