Posted by Aphrodite on January 1, 2005, at 8:12:37
In reply to The pdoc's apology -- what do you think?, posted by Aphrodite on December 23, 2004, at 18:18:32
Instead of adapting her Dr. Phil, get real, get over it, lecture approach after my complaints, she just decided to lecture and tell me to "get over" different subjects. She was careful not to bring up the csa -- I guess she thought the problem was not her style but what she was discussing. I left thinking, "OK, I can be grown up, just use her for the meds which are working, I can do this . . ." Then I went to my T and had a meltdown and told him he is pushing me to be too mature, grown up, etc. and that just being in her presence reminds me of female authority figures throughout my life who failed to protect me. I apologized for failing on the 3rd pdoc try and how horribly difficult I must be.
He gave me permission not only to quit but to outright hate her;) That helped. He said he had already spoken to another pdoc who was "warm and fuzzy" as I had requested and said he's going with me. End of story. It's hard for me, Ms. Do-It-Herself, to have to accept this kind of care, but it really was the traumatized little Aphrodite who has been scared to death so a little caretaking is nice. I will argue and not let him go with me, but the offer and intent behind it was very touching.
All of this anguish for a little bit of mood stabilizers. Why does everything have to be SO complicated?
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