Posted by Dinah on December 29, 2004, at 23:24:10
In reply to Re: Pink and yellow swirls - largely incomprehensi » Dinah, posted by daisym on December 29, 2004, at 19:14:14
My brother's gone back to Afghanistan. :( Left this morning. I got to spend a while with him on Christmas before he left though. You know, all my dogs just love him to pieces. It's enough to make me think well of him just for that.
I don't know how to stop the frantic. Whenever I slow down, I seem to start falling apart. I hate to go to sleep because I know what waits for me in the early morning.
Plus, it's so important to me that things get done the way he'd want them done. But, understandably perhaps (although it's hard for me to see that), others don't seem to care that much about his wishes. Just because he's dead! Geesh...
But that's what my therapist wants me to do, I think. Stop with the frantic and sit and feel. Or maybe just stop being self destructive with the frantic. I'd like that too, I suppose. But obviously not enough.
(I'm glad you're starting to feel less frantic. I hope it lasts.)
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