Posted by Skittles on December 24, 2004, at 10:08:50
In reply to Psychological Time vs. Real Time, posted by daisym on December 24, 2004, at 3:15:02
Daisy,
I'm so glad for you that you have such a wonderful therapist. It seems like he said all the right things. I just find it terribly unfortunate that the right words can't magically take all the pain and discomfort away, you know? I really wish they could. Even if only on a temporary basis.
I like what he said about psychological time. It's a good way to explain it. I feel like I'm about to go nuts - having to be this person on the outside that I don't feel is authentic to the inside, and for such a long period of time. I've had to get out everyday to get shopping finished, when usually I stay home as much as possible. And I have to spend the next 3 days being the "good, happy, and helpful daughter" around my parents when I'm really full of anger and sadness toward them. I feel like the thread of me is pulled so tight that it is about to snap.
So yeah, I understand psychological time. But sadly I have real time issues too. My last appointment was Monday and I won't see her again until the 6th!!!! As for ways to get through it, mine told me to call her anytime. Of course I won't do it. And I suppose she knows that because she told me I'd hear from her on Monday so we can touch base. But Monday feels light years away right now. I like the idea of keeping his picture in your pocket. Sounds very comforting. I don't have a picture, but I do have a few pieces of paper on which she's written names of books or what have you. Maybe I'll slip one of those into my own pocket. Might be silly, but hey, it's all I've got!!! And there is still a message from her on my answering machine, so if things get really bad, I'll try to sneak away and call home to listen to it because her voice calms me.
Daisy, I'll be thinking of you over the weekend. And hoping that you can easily keep that balance of shutting down enough to stay sane yet still be able to keep your therapist close by your side.
Skittles
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