Posted by chaaya on December 3, 2004, at 16:22:06
In reply to Re: Mad at psychologist » chaaya, posted by Poet on December 3, 2004, at 13:54:29
Actually I can be a threat to my self but at the moment it isn't because I'm suicidal. A few days before the meeting with the pdoc I had started getting these images and thoughts of doing some major cutting that could unintentionaly kill me. I was trying to not kill myself and the only way that I could get them to go away was to make smaller cuts. I had wanted to talk to him about this when I went in but once I assured him that the cutting was not a suicide attempt, he didn't want to talk about it because he thought the pills were more important. Well, they were definetly not more important. My next appointment with the T was the one where she stood me up.
If I'm over-reacting to the T talking to the pdoc, this is part of the reason I'm sure. I should have been able to talk to him about what I thought was important instead of what she though was important and I could have if I was the one to tell him about the meds.
I know that she had no idea the problems this would cause me and I'm trying to make sure that my anger at her (and thoughts of switching Ts)is based on what she knowingly did, but I'm sure that the cutting issue is influencing it. The reason that I was really stressed out and did the cutting was because she had pointed out to my that my switch from short term disability to long term might not get approved and wanted to know if I would kill myself if it didn't. The thought had never occured to me until she asked it.
Chaaya
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