Posted by Aphrodite on November 28, 2004, at 14:15:48
In reply to feeling guilty may trigger, posted by rubenstein on November 28, 2004, at 11:23:23
I struggle with not getting better all the time. Internally, I get discouraged that despite his best efforts and mine, I don't *feel* any better. Of course, I understand things more and have a better emotional vocabulary, but the feelings haven't changed -- I'd say they've worsened.
And as for my T, I worry all the time that I must frustrate him professionally. I know this isn't my issue, but I'm a caretaker. I also wonder if he thinks I am somehow trying to sabotage the process. And, like you, when I am feeling very badly, I want to quit in order not to upset either of us.
Still, I plug on. It's important to say that you feel badly about not feeling better. It means that your T needs to keep trying to look for creative solutions. When I don't want to do this for myself, I think about times I have been medically ill. When one antibiotic or whatever doesn't work, I'm yapping at my doc's doorstep until she finds something that works, and I don't let up until I feel better. Why should it be any different with my depression?
Sorry you're having a rough time, but isolating yourself isn't going to make it better. Take it from me, I've tried. :)
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