Posted by alexandra_k on November 17, 2004, at 16:32:45
Ok, so I started seeing a T from my uni when I wasn't working with anyone. Then a couple of weeks later my p-doc offered to give me psychotherapy. So I have been working with them both for a couple of months now. My p-doc can only see me fortnightly, though, and that really isn't enough though he says that it is the best he can do. I see the T from varsity every week.
A month or so back I told T2 (from varsity) about my p-doc giving me psychotherapy. She didn't mind because she said that our university service is supposed to be short term and so she couldn't work with me unless I was getting outside support as well. She did say, though, that she couldn't really keep seeing me without him knowing because it is (understandably) considered unethical to see someone else's client without them knowing.
I said I'd tell him. I was going to. But then I thought about it some more and decided that nope I wasn't going to do it. I have everything to lose. If he gets pissed at me then I could end up with nothing. I told her that I'd changed my mind and that maybe it would be best if I stopped seeing her. She said 'nope, you aren't ready to talk about this yet, I'll bring it up again in a couple of weeks'. But I am not going to change my mind. But she won't accept it when I say I won't see her anymore. But I am not going to change my mind. I am not sure whether I should just send her an email saying I won't be going back. Or whether she will figure out that I am not going to change my mind soon enough...
My p-doc only offered to give me therapy becuase nobody else would. I am worried that he will withdraw his offer if he thinks he can dump me off onto someone else.
I feel all guilty about this, like I am keeping secrets. But then fortnightly isn't enough. It is not.
poster:alexandra_k
thread:417142
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20041113/msgs/417142.html