Posted by crushedout on November 11, 2004, at 23:15:27
I guess things have been going pretty well. The break from my T (for all those who know *my* saga) seems to be doing me good. I feel like I'm getting small glimmers of life beyond her. It's like she's cast this huge shadow over my life and the light is now only *beginning* to peek through the cracks. Maybe. It's kind of a relief.
I still have so much to figure out with the consulting T, though. Whether, and if so, when, to see T1 again. Whether to terminate if I do see her. How to terminate. Do I need to have someone else lined up first? Do I need to be in therapy? What do I tell T1? Do I lay blame or is that not helpful? Do I express anger at her for her failing me, for hurting me, for being so careless with my fragile self? Do I do it in a letter?
I'm scheduled to see consulting T on Monday, then I have an appointment with T1 on Thursday. I don't know if I should cancel, try to put her off, or what. I guess I'll have to try to figure that out with the T on Monday. But if you guys have thoughts, they are more than welcome.
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