Posted by LittleGirlLost on October 22, 2004, at 11:13:56
I'm really struggling with the days between sessions; especially the day or two immediately after (like today). Anyway, I almost always call my T the day after a session, but last week I held out. It was torture, but I did it. For some reason it made the time between us seem even longer. So when I saw her last night I told her that; that it felt so long. And she said, "You know, I was thinking the exact same thing!" For some reason that made me feel good; like we are on the same wavelength or something.
She said something else good too. We were talking about my jealousy and she said that even though she sees other people, she has a special place in her heart for me; and that she likes seeing and hearing from me. I forget exactly how she said it but it was something like, "why can't you understand or believe that?"
Again we talked about how hard it is to leave. There wasn't much time left, but she asked (I think it was just hypothetical), when would I like to come back. I said tomorrow! So she tells me that when people were in psychoanalysis, it wasn't uncommon to come 5 days a week, and that it was okay for me to want that. The rest is blurry but I said that if I couldn't do it then I don't want to want it.
I just hurt so much today! The nicer she is, the more it hurts, and she's ALWAYS nice. She held my doll last night; I love when she holds her. But I'm so sad today.
LGL
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