Posted by shortelise on October 13, 2004, at 17:46:12
In reply to Re: your experience » shortelise, posted by 64bowtie on October 13, 2004, at 14:28:42
Rod
What if we don't come back? Hm. I guess that's where the trust in the therapist comes in? I'm willing to go there because I trust he'll help me through it and back?
The idea of "not coming back from there" doesn't really register with me. Or does it. Let me think ...
I think it would mean that the feelings just don't get resolved and I go on as before. And I think I must have done that on lots of levels.I do not think that without a therapist I can "escape the trap of internal conflictedness". I think that the conflict that remains within will be there after I have terminated with this therapist (which we are in the process of after six years), that I am not able to resolve it on my own because it's just another leaf among those fallen - I don't recognize it.
I wish I could look at the therapy I've done as clearly as some of you seem to, lain out behind you neatly analysed and understood. For me it's so ... what? Just felt? It's as though I've tumbled through it, head over heels, coaxed on by gravity, trying all the while to get through it without too many bruises. At very few points have I said, ah, I'm going through the blah blah phase.
Yes, change in one's self does engender change in the people around one - and some are not up for it, so, off they go, sometimes with a boot in the behind.
Hope this makes sense. Thanks for the response. It means a lot.
ShortE
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