Posted by Pandabear on September 8, 2004, at 22:55:17
I went to my session today and instead of me having to say something first, my therapist asked me what was causing the most stress in my life ..and I said "therapy" she said we should talk about it and so we did.
I told her about my financial situation and how that it was getting really hard for me to pay for my sessions..I told her about how that I am scared to not have anymore sessions because not having a session makes me obsessive. I worry about her and I worry about us loosing our 'relationship that we have developed...I did NOT tell her that I know where she lives..Im going to keep it to myself...as long as Im not doing anything to disrupt HER life...like stalking or something...then im ok.
She was so understanding and I told her that i needed to make clear that when I start backing off that it doesnt mean that im terminating myself or that she has terminated me...(she interupts me to tell me that she isnt even thinking about terminating me)..and then I of course had to make sure that she wasnt retiring anytime soon..and she said that she isnt...and that she will be working until she is old and gray..:)ANd that she will let me know way in advance when she retires which hopefully wont be for another 15 or so years...thats a long time for therapy..:) whew. (can you tell I worry a lot). I tend to fortune tell....look into the future and worry about things far in advance...this is what gets me in trouble..
But, all is well. it was the best session...I feel a lot less stressed out...she told me that she doesnt believe that I am ready to back off from therapy yet and that I will know when im completely ready but until then to just keep coming once a week.....Im hoping to be able to go less once the new year starts.....we shall see.Thanks for all the advice.
(Pray that Hurricane Ivan doesnt come to Florida...that would not be good news for me...<><
thanks
Pandabear
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