Posted by Dinah on September 7, 2004, at 13:25:24
In reply to Re: To be continued... » daisym, posted by Dinah on September 4, 2004, at 14:49:52
Today's session was more pragmatic. In the end he said he believed I was too depressed to make a clear decision right now. And we talked about how difficult I make it for him. That on the one hand, he didn't feel like he could be as honest as he would like to be that it wasn't a good idea, because my rational side would think all he was interested in was the money and would harp on and on about that. While my emotional side needed a more forceful statement from him that I was depressed, he cared that I was depressed, and that he didn't want to see me go away and hide because I was depressed.
He also was talking a lot about antidepressants. But that opens an entirely new can of worms. If the me that has consciousness and interacts with the world say 85-95% of the time isn't depressed, what use are antidepressants. The only time I've taken AD's is when all of me is depressed and I'm in enough pain often enough to justify the pain that comes from the side effects. You can't aim the drugs for one ego state and avoid the other. Or to put it another, possibly more palatable way, my depression is buried pretty deep below the surface, doesn't really interfere with my day to day activities, and AD's would interfere with my day to day activities more than the depression does.
And I hate AD's.
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