Posted by cubic_me on September 2, 2004, at 16:50:09
In reply to Re: Urges**Trigger** » rockymtnhi, posted by B2chica on September 2, 2004, at 13:24:19
The thoughts and advice in the threads above is spot on, and it's great you feel able to talk a bit here.
I was just wondering what makes these urges feel so different from your previous experience with SI? Is it because it is so focuses on these two parts of you, or something else?
I have self injured on and off for quite a few years, and have often felt my urges to do it focus on my arms. I used to think that it was because of their easy access, but I'm not so sure now. All but once I have resisted the urge to cut anywhere on my arms that cannot be concealed by my thick strapped watch or bracelets, however I still often want to cut my lower arm, so for me it is not ritualistic in that sense. When I really concentrate on where I feel emotion, i can often feel the pain inside radiating down my arms to my fingertips, with the most intense pain in the muscles a couple of inches below the elbow, and now I realise that this is probably why I want to cut there so much - to change the emotional pain to physical.
I'm sorry to talk about myself so much in a response to your post - I was just hoping that it might help you realise why you focus on your arms and hair.
Good luck
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