Posted by tinydancer on September 2, 2004, at 13:19:51
In reply to Kind of mad. Justified?, posted by tinydancer on September 1, 2004, at 10:06:40
Today I started the hour out with discussing how I felt. My feelings had mellowed out to the point where I wasn't so angry anymore, but I wanted to express my hurt feelings. It was so weird-I didn't feel like he really reacted a lot to it, he sort of acknowledged my feelings, but didn't really accept any kind of responsibility for it himself. He claimed that his intentions were good but that he might have been preoccupied. He even admitted "looking for a good excuse"...haha! In the end he said, "What can I do to make it up to you?" I started laughing hysterically and asked if we could freeze time for a minute there just so I could enjoy it..He said, "Sure! Let's do that. I can even say it again..." So I was giggling to death but managed to settle down and get serious again. He had one idea of his own, and I also had one. My idea was that he could reply to me again how he wished he should've replied the first time. His idea involved this gift I had bought for him, but ended up not giving to him because I know his stance on gifts. He said that I could bring it in, which was nice.
In the end I just felt kind of let down still. Like I guess I wanted to sense more of his own personal reaction or feeling to what happened when it was more, "I can understand you felt like this or like that"....
Oh well. Can't have great appointments every time. I guess I am struggling now due to the fact that he has a HUGE patient load at the moment because he runs a inpatient program at the hospital 4 days a week....I feel like he's so distracted, I guess, but that's how it goes...
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