Posted by Sebastian on August 30, 2004, at 19:07:13
In reply to change, posted by caraher on August 30, 2004, at 18:33:48
My undieing fear is that the next doctor won't give me the same meds.
My appointment was supposed to be Wed. My thought is that I will just stop talk therapy again. Last time I did talk therapy it was with a different doctor, a psychologist in the same practice. I stoped going to them because I thought it was stupid..., not working. I'm still going to the same psychiatrist as from then, '98. I started talking to the psychiatrist about psychology, and he decided to put me on as a dual purpose, for 1 hour sessions. It worked great for a while about 2 years. But in the last year or so I decided that this is not working again. I have special permision from insurance for the duel purpose doctor visits. And the last time it just real ticked me off.
So what do I do?
I keep thinking that I should be better by now, not sick, 9 years after the event that started this. But when I started to come off the meds, I had withdraw that was just unreal. I pleated with my doctor to give me more.
I fear coming off meds, because I think I will go insaine, and that is what I don't want. I realy hate my life by now. I don't enjoy anything anymore, I'm not happy, . I want to start life over but I lost so many years. I don't think I will ever get off the meds. This doctor is telling me meds for life. This is good but this is bad. I need help, I have a doctor and my life is just getting worse. [Except for my job.] Life sucks I keep telling the doctor, I have not goten anything that works. More pills or cheep advice. The only reason I go anymore is because I'm afraid that I won't be able to get any pills. Now I'm rambling and getting nowhere.
I do wonder, am I not getting better because he needs money?
poster:Sebastian
thread:382659
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