Posted by lonelygal on August 29, 2004, at 17:39:15
i've only met with my new therapist twice now- and she has diagnosed me with adjustment disorder rule out dysthymic disorder. i'm not sure how i feel about this. i dont' like having a 'disorder'.
i haven't opened up to her at all (of course it's only been two times), but i'm not sure i'll open up to her in the near future at all. i feel like its a waste of my time. i want my old t back, but of course that can't happen, and i'm pretty sure old t hates me now. i feel like i shouldnt go, that it is a waste of $, and the bits and pieces i've told my friends about therapy- well, i always end up getting made fun of for it. one of my best friends is right though that the old t caused me way too much drama and that she thinks it was completely ridiculous how i worried all the time about that relationship. so part of me thinks i shouldnt' be in therapy- that i should just ignore everything and act normal. and also, that i can't be that abnormal, that lots of people have issues, and they dont' go to therapy to talk about them and they are fine. i don't want any drama with new t. and i don't want to be needy and feel annoying and i dont' want her to hate me or leave me or hurt me. okay, i'll stop rambling now.
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thread:383787
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