Posted by shortelise on August 27, 2004, at 17:52:35
As some of you may remember, I am in the end phase of therapy, after 6 years with a very kind, caring therapist.
I have been seeing him once every two weeks instead of weekly for the past couple of months, about. We'll go to once a month as soon as I am able (in another 20 years or so, right?) and then ... I can't think about that right now.
I am so sad. I feel abandoned and rejected and though I understand that I need to go through this phase to feel the feelings I felt the first time around (mommy stuff), and to see that it's not the same, that he is not deserting me, but will still be there for me, that I *am* cared for, it feels like caca.
I understand one thing and feel something else.
It's just painful. I stay in the feeling, and feel it, cry, and try to be present in it.
But OUCH OUCH OUCH!!!!!
What is going on? Can someone explain this to me? What is this from-the-bottoms-of-my-feet grief? Is there any other way?
Thanks very much
ShortE
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