Posted by Aphrodite on August 24, 2004, at 21:12:03
After several months of therapy, I've recently begun opening up about several traumatic experiences, and as happens with wound-ripping, I have gone from CEO Aphrodite to weepy, mess Aphrodite. It's been hard to revisit things repressed for so long. So, as I have come to rely and depend on my T and even make an emergency call or two despite my worries about being a burden, I got shocked into reality when he asked me to go to a pdoc. I've been struggling with this on several levels. The most hurtful thing is that I feel like now that I'm letting everything out, he wants to shut me up. I feel like it's too much for him, and he does seem to excessively worry. I know this is probably not the case, but the timing is rather suspect. Second, I'm afraid of meds causing me to lose any joy I might have in addition to dulling the pain.
Also, I have no idea what to expect in a psych evaluation. It's been a week or two of trying to even find one whose recommended and who takes new patients. I've got an appointment with one who is just a shot in the dark. (He's a DO instead of an MD -- does anyone know the significance of that?) What can I expect? Does the pdoc automatically want to talk with the T? The idea of that is very troubling to someone like me. I can already hear the snickering.
Sorry, bad day. Thanks for any help.
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thread:381925
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