Posted by lonelygal on August 18, 2004, at 19:52:17
I posted a week ago I guess about how I moved cross country and had to terminate with my old therapist and start seeing a new therapist. I'm so annoyed. Today I received a letter in the mail from my old therapist, a sort of notice of termination, and I'm so mad. She seemed so cold. I feel like I hate her so much. I am so mad at myself for telling her stuff. I feel like she has so much power over me, and she's not that much older than me, and I'm so ticked, like she never cared, it was all fake, and that she just put up with me and at times was nice b/c that's what she is supposed to be. I met with a new therapist for the first time two days ago, and she seems nice sort of, but I'm very apprehensive of starting therapy again b/c therapy seems to suck. She was already asking me difficult questions, and I don't know her, and I dont' want her to know so much about me b/c I haven't tested her out yet (although apparently I'm not very good at testing b/c I feel completely betrayed by my old therapist now and wish I could take back everything). I'm so mad. I want to cry and just fall apart and disappear. I hate everything. Oh, and I reluctantly gave the new therapist permission to contact old therapist, but now I'm not sure that is a good idea at all- actually it's probably a big mistake cuz I don't want the new therapist to know everything I told the old therapist, that's weird. grrrrr. why does everything suck? :(
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