Posted by shrinking violet on August 11, 2004, at 19:44:56
Hi everyone,
I hope it's all right to post my first post on this board; I've been reading this particular board for a few days now, since I came across it via a search, and I identify very much with what many of you are/have experienced[-ing] with your therapists.
I'm a graduate student at a University. I started seeing a therapist for the first time last summer (eating disorder and subsequent anxiety, depression); I walked into the counseling center at school and was paired with the most genuine, caring, supportive, available T that I could have asked for. We've had a lot of hard times together (my inability to verbalize, --although, finally, I think I'm making some progress in that area -- my being put IP for two days so she and the rest of my treatment team could make themselves feel better, my defensiveness/anger, etc). Throughout everything though, we've somehow been able to develop a respect and caring for each other (perhaps some of it is transference, although I bristle at the term and I believe that our relationship goes beyond that, but that's another post...).
She tells me she cares for me, she tells me she thinks of me outside of the office and session, she's open and genuine, she has told me I'm "in her heart," she validates and talks about our relationship/connection (again, that's another topic....lol). She has her faults, she isn't "perfect" (who is?), she's made mistakes (and admitted them), but she's my T and I feel very lucky to have her.
And, maybe most importantly, she's put up with me for a year (not easy feat) and I'm very appreciative of that, and very fortunate to know her. She's pretty special.
Problem is, when I graduate (tentatively this December, although I'm thinking about extending it until next May, but I'm not sure she'd be allowed (or willing) to see me past December), I lose her, which already upsets me greatly (I know, that's another post too...).
Anyway, there's the general introduction.
Again, I apologize if this forum isn't appropriate for first posts.
Thanks for reading,
SV
poster:shrinking violet
thread:376562
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