Posted by shortelise on August 11, 2004, at 12:22:26
In reply to Re: I'm obsessed with my identity » JenStar, posted by Angela2 on August 11, 2004, at 11:44:52
I play the guitar - from the age of 12-20 it was the central point in my life. I wrote music and preformed, was a street musician for several years. I rarely play anymore.
When I was about 15, I learned to do pottery. For a year or two I did that. I made some wonderful pieces. I don't do this anymore.
I made clothes. Not with patterns, I just created clothing, I didn't have much money, was living abroad and wanted to have nice things to wear. I don't do this anymore.
Then I did a series of paintings. Maybe five or six. It took a great deal of time and concentration. They were paintings of the apartment I was living in abraod - it was 300 years old, and I wanted to remember it. I haven't done a water colour since.
Then I painted silk yardage. Dyed it really. I must have done hundreds of yards, some I sold, some I made clothes out of. SOme I stil have, gorgeous pieces full of colour. I don't dye silk anymore - nor do I make clothing.
Then I became a cook. I can cook everything from Thai to Turkish food. THe good thing and the bad thing about being a cook is that, well, once you start cooking you can never stop. Luckily, this is a passion that has endured.
I've made objects out of wool felt. I've sewn tapestry handbags. I've made baby quilts. Pen and ink drawings, pointillist paintings ... I can't think of all the phases I have gone through.
And that's not mentioning, with the exception of playing music, what I've done to earn a living!!!
So, Angela, maybe you are not focussed, and maybe you do need to work on that. And I do agree that understanding who we are is important. It has taken me several years of therapy to accept the fact that how I am is ok.
It's exciting for me to know that once I've made my funny little stone house, I'll do something else, and it will feel wonderful.
It sounds like your therapist is telling you the truth, though. Could you maybe print some of this thread and take it with you?
ShortE
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