Posted by NVDeb on July 23, 2004, at 10:15:33
In reply to Re: GardenerGirl » NVDeb, posted by gardenergirl on July 23, 2004, at 7:52:50
Hi, thanks for responding.
I've been to therapists since 1998 (including one that yawned and cleaned her nails during therapy). I started with this one in April of this year, and have gone to exactly 14 sessions. It's hard for me to talk about feelings. I have this whole 7 page letter written that I plan to read out loud to her. At the beginning she would read things I wrote instead of relying on talking (something no other therapist ever allowed) and finally got me to READ something aloud to her 2 session ago (last sessions we took a detour and just talked about some difficulties at my job so we didn't expand on the next-to-the-last session). I was planning to keep on reading aloud as a natural progression until I actually just talk (which I want to do now but always freeze so I'm between just writing and talking).
She's given me hugs but I've never given her a proper one (I'm very uncomfortable with hugs because of the whole who-would-want-to-hug-me but I'll leave all that for the actual session ;)).
So that's a little background info. I've certainly never told anyone (ANYONE) that I've loved them in the past. I've repeated it back but I've never initiated it to anyone.
When I first got to her in early April I was even uncomfortable saying "I'm happy" (nevermind "I'm sad" or "I'm angry").
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