Posted by B2chica on July 15, 2004, at 15:11:44
In reply to Re: suicidal thought remorse? » B2chica, posted by TexasChic on July 15, 2004, at 11:56:50
Hey TexasChica!
haven't heard from you in a while. it's nice to talk to you.>>What makes you think your issues aren't as real as those people with physical disabilities?
-this is something i struggle with a LOT. the other day i saw a client that is 23 and had a brain stem stroke and is mostly locked-in (meaning he's cognitively intact but has virtually no way to communicate-has some eye movement)on a vent.
then we work largely with persons diagnosed with ALS (Lou Gehrig's disease-terminal) very VERY difficult to deal with.
i see these persons with such a determination to fight every step of the way. sometimes it encourages me (kinda rubs off on me) but other times it makes me feel SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much worse about myself.i guess maybe it's petty but, you are right, and i think sometimes i just need to hear that. you know how you can tell yourself something 100 times and still not believe it but when someone else says it once you can????
>>I'm really glad you didn't go through with the pills, but I can certainly understand the urge. You're not alone. I hope you'll continue to fight the fight, and I'll do the same.
Now this encourages me. it seems like i've had a lot of "waves" lately. i'm ok for the moment but in an hour or two i could be depressed again. like that and first thing i do is stare at my pills. I just got refills yesterday and even though my pdoc suggested i stop taking the sleeping pills i got a refill. not cuz i was ready to take them all, but a sort of "just in case". thinking about the reasoning scares me a bit cuz i was for the most part feeling level not depressed, yet i still purchased them with that specific in mind??? i hope i'm not heading down that road just yet. i'm just very tired and need a break for a while from all these emotions.
My husband wants us to go camping tomorrow night (one night) i finally agreed. Maybe a night away from everything will help?And i really like you saying that you'll hang in there if i do. this Actually gives me a reason to think twice.
Thank you for your support TC.
B2c.
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