Posted by gardenergirl on July 13, 2004, at 11:44:13
In reply to Re: My therapy dream, posted by pegasus on July 12, 2004, at 15:11:17
> Don't have much time right now, but I did want to point out that you seem to have multiple people in your dream (all therapists) who are not following reasonable therapy rules in various ways. And you got frustrated at both of them (for good reason). So I think it's fair to say that you're having some kind of frustration with therapy in general. I'll think about this some more later.
Hmmm, kind of like beating me on the head with a two by four to get the message across (needing all those T's)? I do get frustrated at the pace. Whenever I come to an insight, I feel like I ought to be able to use that insight actively and consciously. And I know that's not really how it works. And half the time, I don't even remember it later.
I also get caught up in trying to balance content and process stuff. When I thought that sharing my shift in transference would be something my T would be glad to hear me talk about, he commented something like, "and now this is taking time away by having us talk about the process." I'm not sure what he meant by that. Half the time I feel like we should be talking more about the transference.
AAAGGH! I hate knowing intellectually how the process is "supposed" to work while being in the process at the same time. Anybody know how to turn off my T brain while I am in session?
But I suppose that his comment was not what I was hoping for. I know I've been trying to be the "good client" a lot lately, which is part of the shift. And I feel like I am not doing a good job.
Hmmm, thanks for you input. I love how this can provoke more thought. I may have to print out this thread for my T and bring it in on Friday.
gg
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