Posted by DissociativeJane on July 10, 2004, at 8:38:50
In reply to Very weird question, posted by Dinah on July 9, 2004, at 12:26:18
Dinah,
I am still learning about my dissociative disorder and have great trouble verbalizing what actually happens to me when I "leave". However, I can share with you that during my last therapy session I looked at my therapist and said, "I am not dissociating right now, I'm just being silent". She smiled at me and said, "I know". Your posts are wonderful to read.
Jane> I was trying to explain the latest activities of that part of me that puts me down for involuntary naps/forgetting sleeps, that blanks out my brain when I'm about to say something I shouldn't, that sends me into depersonalization/derealization, and a host of other things. About how my body seems to decide that something is dangerous and deals with it outside of my conscious control through these various really nifty devices.
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> Since I was saying that it did these things in situations that I didn't think were dangerous, but that my body must think are dangerous, my therapist asked if I thought there was a part of me controlling these things. And my opinion was no, no self aware part of me was controlling these things even though they happened in different situations than I would have chosen if I had control over the process.
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> I asked him how it worked in other people and he admitted that he wasn't sure. That he was he knew dissociative clients had these experiences, but he wasn't sure how they worked, or even if they worked the same in all clients with a talent for dissociation.
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> Any ideas out there? I used to refer to that function as "the controller" but stopped when I realized my therapist was taking the phrase to mean a self state rather than a sort of switchboard or circuit breaker or something the way I meant it. Does anyone with similar experiences (if anyone does have similar experiences) have any thoughts?
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