Posted by gardenergirl on July 9, 2004, at 16:16:01
I just had a session today where I spent a great deal of time talking about how I am self-sabotaging and feeling paralyzed about stuff that I need to do that is overwhelming (dissertation and home stuff). Basically, all this week I have been a slug. I'm not even reading for pleasure or gardening for pleasure. I just get up, eat, watch some tv, nap, eat, get ready for hubby to come home, etc. I feel so guilty about it, and the more days that go by like this, the worse I feel.
So he thinks that the time I had to spend with my mom really affected me more than I realized...that it took the wind out of my sails and I needed a time to recharge. I also mentioned the insomnia I had been having, and that I have been binge eating more.
So basically, he said, those are all symptoms of increased depression. And later, he said, "GG, you're a wreck." Now I know he meant this in a caring way, and it felt validating at the time. But my rational brain is saying, "He just called you a wreck!" Sheesh! Am I that messed up I don't even know it? Well, yes, in some ways, I guess so, since I've been beating myself up all week over what seems to be depression I didn't acknowledge.
I just wonder what y'all think and if your T ever said anything similar to you. How did you respond? How did it feel? And did you spend a bunch of time analyzing it later like I seem to be?
Thanks,
gg the Titanic
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