Posted by partlycloudy on July 5, 2004, at 11:49:11
In reply to Just need to talk(long), posted by rs on July 5, 2004, at 10:29:15
I know how frightning therapy can be as you face disturbing feelings and memories. It's also very isolating, because only you know what's inside your head, no matter how good a relationship you have with your T.
It helps me to remember that the bad stuff is living in my head, but isn't capable of materializing in front of me and becoming a reallife threat. That was true at the time the experience happened, but now they are in the past, a safe place, far from where you are now.
I work full-time too. Up until a few weeks ago, when I was fortunate enough to have a breakthrough in my treatment, it was all I could do to keep up the facade all day. I would literally develop tunnel vision - one foot in front of the other, and my eyes on my feet! If I looked up to see a caring, questioning face, I would lose it and start crying again.
And yet having this job has been my life saver. It forces me to bed out of bed. It forces me to go through the motions, which spends the time so I'm not dwelling on those horrible feelings I carry around with me.
I'm sure your T is not about to abandon you. Their interest is in making us better, not getting rich off of us.
Take care. rs.
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