Posted by pinkeye on June 16, 2004, at 14:34:50
It has been two years since I first met my T. Ours was a very weird therapy relationship. He was in my home country and I met him when I was on vacation because of marital problems. We had a few sessions for a month, and then I had to come back to US.
I kept in touch with him through emails and some phone calls and gradually fell for him. Again I went to my home country about 6 months back, and had a few sessions. And we both agreed that I am doing pretty well and decided to terminate. I still write emails to him, and he replies once every few months.
I am still very attached and attracted to him. The feelings for him are so powerful that some times, I don't know how to handle them. There is no way I could ever be with him. and I also know that he isn't attracted to me at all. That I know for sure. But there is always a tinge of hope in the corner of my heart that keeps wanting him.
He knows about my attraction and he has accepted it. I feel really better every now and then about my attachment to him too, but today I am not able to go on anymore. I wish I could write to him telling him how much I am in love with him. But it seems quite stupid especially since he already knows it and would probably think I am pestering him.
Pinkeye.
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